leave me alone

its a night my tears are accompanying me
heartache.
truly pain like hell

only know i cant lose you guys
only know the days we had is so damn important to me



but things couldn't return anymore.

there are something else which make me feel this sad
but i don't wish to share

leave me alone
don't feel like blogging now.

change

my blog with a new skin



the colour just perfectly express my feeling in lately
it ain't BLACK
it is gray
the colour of the mixture of black and white

the mixture of happiness and sadness
the mixture of laugh and weep
the mixture of love and hate



=')
tears with smile
looks good.

.

it ends up without a full stop

i hate nights that make me think too much of nonsense

i just cant hold my tears like how i lose control on missing you so crazy





you knew that ain't what i wanted to say
you pretty sure that ain't my thoughts

yet you threw out the joke which brings the meaning of mine in the other way round












it wasn't fun
its pretty hurt

i tried to laugh yet the tears were rolling down so unexpectedly
and i was unable to stop my tears from dropping


this much i care about you.

random post part 2

posted the latest blog only i realized before that i should had updated all about my I-city romantic roam first!!
ROFL...

so
let the photos do the talk
lazy to type...zzz


being lame in the car is a MUST cause it was really f**king bored sitting in the car!
LOL


reached I-city after having our dinner in Klang
we had SEAFOOD for our dinner ^^
but ain't delicious at all =x

its bad I'd complain so much here
cause A very kind Klang boss treats us this meal
should be saying THANK YOU instead of complaining the food not nice huh??
><"


with my girl -- Bak Mei

my girl and the BOY -- lewis

myself and the boy


i'd found a heart in I-city
the only thing that impressed me at there


the sweet sweet couple
my girl's sis and the BF



simply just so love this pic for no reason ♥



the girl is back from UK!!
went to her house heart-talking
they are always a good listener
or i should say
i am always the one whom likes to talk so much nonsense and they PRETEND they are listening?
LOL
whatever
we girls like to talk =p








ends.

random..

sad case
i stayed at home the whole 2 days after I-city with my babe
no one calls no one asks for any date

except for the seduce from MIA asking me to visit her in Penang
i really wish to go but no accompanies no time either

so i said
SAD CASE
my holiday seems like so vapidity


received the strawberries from Ms fish which is native to Cameron Highland
they are sweet and nice!
but my father says its all with farm chemical and asks us not to take too much

they look sweet too ♥


thanks a lot Ms fish
she brings these back to me cause i never been there before
LOL
ya its true i never been there since i was young
no big deal peeps


one Korean girl will be staying at my house about 4 days
she is my eldest brother's Korean friend
and this time she come to visit Malaysia alone
so my family have to receive her~
which means
HAHAHAHAHA
my mom will be busying for taking the girl here and there
and I'll be following
XD

but this will definitely makes me gain my weight cause i can't introduce the Malaysian yumilicious food to the girl but I'm not taking one hor?

sigh...


i miss my angel
she went back to her forest ,i mean Sabah
this girl never knows how to behave herself huh?
used to do something WE don't allow her to do without us

big baby i miss you much here ♥









now only i realize
there are so many things have to be done in this holiday

i just
never know hows the perfect way to arrange my time
T^T



baby
you know i miss you too

HOLIDAY ♥

oh yes!!!
i am officially a FREE GIRL now!!!
no finals no assignments no tests


2 weeks without stress and pressure
2 weeks without your face





=)
gonna enjoy much before another nightmare comes to me



my 小爱人 brings me out for seafood today ♥
and the date with those crazy girls on this coming Friday
and going somewhere naughty on Saturday?

XD

i just don't wanna be at home






escaping from being free
to fade out the strong feeling.

FB vs Blog

i have blog about so much these days
and somehow i hated Facebook so much until i choose to escape from there to here

FB used to expose much about everything of a person
it just let me lose my feeling of secure and makes me much worrier than how i used to be

knowing everything ain't a nice way to joy myself




Facebook has successfully replaced blogging
no one blogs now and no one cares bout blogs too
not even a person is willing to give a damn on a blogger like me
oh ya of course i know who the hell am i


nobody.
i am hell nothing to everyone
EVERYONE.








it is not suppose to go like this way round
yet I've just let the darkness to lead my way,i close my eyes


that is the reason which is why i gave no answers and remained silent




hardly control the ache attacking so intensively

F.I.F.A

my night

at last i decided to support Spain
for the reason to be the opposite party of YOUR supporting team
and i tried to trust on what the SOTONG had predicted

i know it's funny
i DON'T KNOW football
my eldest brother came to comment in my post by laughing at me know nothing but supporting Spain for no reason
he said i was a fake fan
i LMAO at that stupid moment
XD


i screamed i shouted out so loud at the mamak stall
i was so excited while the hero Puyol goal-ed and turns Paul's prophecy comes true
and actually
i did enjoy my time spending with those f**king bitch
they just so damn bitchy till i can't lose them in my life
get it my lao-poS?
LOL

i simply just love my full freedom lifestyle
=)



it's a Thursday midnight
oh no is now 6 in the morning
am anticipating something =)




speak up on everything,straight-out telling everything,it seems to be
in fact
everything becomes so sensitive and can not be touched on
i care for no reason
you mad for no reason
we quiet for no reason

i hate rules.

rainy day

it was having a heavy rain
the wind blew so strong like going to break someone's heart


people say they need rain to clean their mind
people say they feel cold when the rain falls so darn pitiless
people got their heart break due to the heartless rain like how the heart-breakers do
people lose their mind when the rain dim them,faintly


i was so warm at that moment
i got someone sweet gave me an accompany and shoo away my loneliness
even though i was having Ice cream during the rainy day
still the warmness hugged me so tightly until the sadness couldn't attack me




i do scare about raining
i do HATE
that is why I'm easily down and hardly stand up again
because i hate



i missed you at that time
but can only miss and do nothing











heard something really guilt the worm of conscience
i didn't know how much i had hurted you
i didn't realize how deep you had got into
i even not believe in myself of the ability to bleed you this much


as i say
who the hell i am?


somehow i dislike the way you show your sadness
don't expose it to others until they feel so annoying
until you have already disturb their life and break their rules

you said you're changed
but i feel not even a lil bit
i feel sorry for my leaving
i wish you're really being mature to handle this kinda stuff

it isn't to hard
just don't do something naive
can you?



oh my...
maybe I'm a bit hardhearted to you
yet,please accept the truth
i'd left you alone
no turning back.















i am a nobody to everyone
included to you too

the much i went deeper
the much i couldn't heal myself



i hate my rational feeling
i hate that i have a clear mind

why not i just take one step forward and let thing happens no matter it will be a tragedy or comedy?
why am i need to think so much?



i don't wish to hurt anyone
anyone i care much ..=(





headache comes to me again every night
with the feeling of missing














concentrate on my study!!!!!
final is coming!!!!
oh my......
thinking nonsense here pulak.............


ciao ♥

update

came to update my blog
someone i knew for less than 3 days
he kept on asking me :" updated your blog?"


reminds me
have been a very long time i blogged


but
have nothing to blog about
my life is so darn depressive recently

final is around the corner
oh ya
the only one subject is going to be tested
really killing me make me crazy
are those stupid final project


2 more weeks to go
first time i feel time passes so slow yet fast

DYING



have my hair cut
dare not to say nice but i like it so much
its a short short half botak hair
XD

i don't care about how people give their sight on me
i care bout,how i look myself
comfy,relax,happy
enough for all







Taste with drugs
Then resistance addiction

this will be the only way i learn to grow up


the only way that can hurt me the least ..♥



每次到了夜深人静的时候 我总是睡不着
我怀疑是不是 只有我的明天没有变得更好
未来会怎样 究竟 有谁会知道
幸福是否只是一种传说
我永远都找不到..

heartache

heartache

you wouldn't know
you just think that I'm so bad temper

oh ya,your words really hurt me
think before you speak
is it still need a 20 year old girl to to teach you?


if its so at home or not I'm also that useless
OK fine,i will choose to be not appear in your sight
so that you will feel more comfort?




you always speak like people have no feeling
you like to WIN in everything


i escape,because i don't like to face you two





no matter how deep i do love you both
you can just break my heart and feel proud because you've won me





i can just escape
since you ask to leave
why not?

you ask for it
so don't blame me!










i hate people whom doesn't know how to respect

that was the only memento i left
you deleted it without asking me first

its okay i could accept if it was the first time you doing this
but hello
how many times you want me to repeat these shits?!

ASK before you do anything to my stuff!!!!






i knew its useless i put my anger on you
so i shut up
and save the memory in my heart



heartache

i felt hurt....

MAY day -.-

duh....... MAY
a very busy month...

mother's day,father's birthday PLUS many friends' birthday
WOW
why so coincidence all were born on May?? @@

HAPPY BIRTHDAY anyway ^^




my DADADA brother suddenly shout at me,his face like something serious is happening

when he comes to me,hands with a magazine
i have no idea whats the next this stupid boy gonna do

and at last,he shows me this..



ha ha~~ its me,don't doubt yourself~


oh ya~
I'd attended a Talks
should be saying ran the show instead of attended
the first show I'd been the emcee in NEC
EXTREMELY nerves!!!! the maximum level I'd never been before!
but phew~~~~ its now over .............. sweat sweat sweat ==''''



the 520 is the self-revealing day,they say

i said I LOVE YOU to my lovely dad
i wish to say I LOVE YOU to the one i love,but not really exists one