morning~

6:40 in the morning
facing all the shit notes but cant be read in to my mind


for more than 1 week i said i wanna study it
for more than 1 week i'd been playing around without touching it

and this is the reason which is why am still facing my computer in this freaking early time
i wish to fall asleep
but i don't wish to retake this stupid subject
no choice and i have to study no matter how unwilling am i


this is call LIFE




we are always left with no choice
we are always wish to get another thing but first we have to sacrifice it
we are always been constrained to do things unwillingly
and
we are always have no chance to say NO



who the hell in this world is fu*king free and unfettered?
who the hell in this world is fu*king free from all anxieties?







let it be
everything will be fine
take a break and ready to move on
all we needed is just a fresh big breathe




okay should go back to study now.
morning peeps =)

exams.

study week past so quietly
without any sense of mine
and for sure i didn't touch any of my study notes

exam week
1 down and 5 more to go

yet my heart is still not in the exam mood


i am waiting for my one week holiday
i am waiting for my new short semester
i am waiting for the new year
i am waiting for my 21st birthday
i am waiting for the end of the short semester
and
i am anticipating for the Chinese New Year


things i am looking after are all happiness
seems like i am not happy enough recently?


i hate examinations
i hate getting stress

i hate my loved one gets hurt
i hate i could do nothing




i hate watching the tears from dropping but mine have to be hold
i hate seeing the bloods from bleeding but i have to stand very still




if you know how does heartache feels like
you wouldn't do so

don't even say love
because you ain't the one.

the Mask

Do not take things for granted
this is what i learnt from my ex-college


i was just a 18 year old secondary school graduated girl
but i knew how meaningful this sentence is
i got the message inside

but seems like no much people knowing the true meaning?
they do things for granted,take things for granted

everybody is wrong,the only correct one,is you





other's pain you feel nothing
because you made it
other's feel you feel rubbish
because you did it



how pretty how beautiful
no one will doubt on you


you wear thousand of masks on your face and act so naturally
should clap for you,for your brilliant action





no one is worthless if you do know how to APPRECIATE


the same thing
you do not know how to appreciate
that's why everyone is worthless to you
and you are nothing to everyone too.