pain

its a hard task for me to hold back my tears
and its impossible for me to stop my heart from bleeding
see how you brought to me the pain
and you're my close skin,aren't you?

i am somewhat painfully sad
do you know?
did you hear?
i screamed......
i love all of you
but...

< 007 Evolution >

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007 Evolution
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date : 26th & 27th Aug 2009
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Read This!! Read This!!

生氣吧，馬來西亞人！
轉載歐陽文風牧師的文章，《華人笨蛋！》。
我已經很久沒有這麼生氣了。

早上在紐約讀到趙明福死的新聞，還有反貪污委員會的反應，加上政府高官如納茲裡的言論，我對我的國家徹底失望！

接下來，再在〈獨立新聞在線〉讀到陳文華揭露如何被反貪委員會盤問，調查官員極盡恐嚇威脅之能事；如此對待一名市議員，甚至比犯人也不如，這個國家是極權的共產主義國度嗎？

更糟糕的竟然還是調查官員不允許陳文華坐著「協助調查」（這是好聽說詞，哪有人如此對待協助者），還指著他的眉心，開口大罵他「CINA BODOH!」。

一 名市議員被調查官員以如此種族主義的字眼謾罵，如果這個官員不被對付，你以為這個國家可能對一般華人平民有多好？基宮案無聲無息，反貪委員卻忙著調查歐陽 捍華、劉永山、郭素沁、黃潔冰、楊巧雙、謝永賢、李寶霖，對了，還有趙明福。這些人不是不能調查，但更明目張膽的基宮案到底是怎麼一回事？一名牙醫到底有 甚麼本事興建壯觀如皇宮般的住家，一扇門就可以等於一幢單層排屋的價格，錢從哪裡來？明顯的問題不查，卻敲鑼打豉查幾個年輕的民聯議員，這是甚麼意思？

反貪污委員會到底是反民聯，還是反貪污？
更甚的是，竟然罵陳文華「華人笨蛋」？！反貪委員會這是一個怎麼病態的組織？！不過，或許他罵得對，或許華人真的是笨蛋！否則，怎麼可能默默忍受這種侮辱？

華人真的可能是笨蛋，明知貪官那麼多，明知馬華民政當家不當權，還有華人支持馬華民政，還有華人投票支持國陣。

華人真的很有可能是笨蛋，種族主主義橫行，馬華民政到底做了甚麼？有官員罵華人市議員是笨蛋，馬華民政的聲音在哪裡？可我們的華社會還有人笨到以為馬華民政是我們的希望。這種華人不夠笨嗎？

華人真的非常有可能是笨蛋，安華當年的黑眼圈，馬哈迪說他是自己打自己，真的有人相信，一大把一大把的選票就這樣給了當年的馬哈迪和國陣，根本不理馬哈迪是怎麼以種種惡法治國。許多華裔優秀學生進不了大學，拿不到外國深造獎學金，馬來人卻沒有這種問題。這是種族主義，還不夠明顯嗎？笨蛋！

可是面對種種不公平的政策，動不動國陣還有人拿出513來嚇選民，可還有華人還是支持國陣，這些華人不是笨蛋又是甚麼？

華人是笨蛋？！

真的，我越來越懷疑馬來西亞有許許多多的華人是笨蛋。懦弱、無知、貪生怕死、欺善怕惡、別人施捨一點甜頭，就暈頭轉向，只想賺錢，只想發財，有奶就是娘，這種人不是蠢才笨蛋又是甚麼？

醒醒吧！如果這時候還不醒，還不辨是非，還不反抗，真是徹頭徹尾的經典超級大笨蛋！

p/s: copy and paste only~~~( from an e-mail )

meeting storm -.-

just to wish
next meeting wouldn't be so terrifying
*SPEECHLESS*
a sorry doesn't really cure, but a sincere sorry does patch up both broken heart
do think rationally whenever before you begin to make your speech


second term is going to begin
feel like not going to college
-.-

result...

if to say I'm easily satisfied to everything
yes,i am
as long as thing doesn't happen bad, I'm glad
as long as ending doesn't pricking, I'm gratify
at the moment i stare at my result
enough for everything, my thought
all pass and the worst is a B
what still I'm asking for??

but when everything is happen to be compared
I begin to hate myself
I could be much better
yet why still i let people to surpass myself?

am suppose to set my target higher,but not only a PASS
am suppose to aim for 3.70 or above,but not only over 2.00

i knew i can't be compared
yet still curious to get know of others
finally, felt myself so useless here
I'm the one to blame
Juin Juin , you deserve it
do yourself an introspection!!!!!

--->3.48....you broke my heart.... T^T

crapy post 2

Suddenly,
I don't like my blog Full of photos
annoying

anyhow, i can't delete
i don't wanna delete
just like those memories
i couldn't found my "DELETE" key
deeply engraved on my fragile heart

weird to have this kinda feeling towards you
you look so charm lately
feel like kissing you...
^^

crapy

it had been a long time I felt this pain
I couldn't lay down my rigid
like I refused to look up the miserable moon

you abandoned me, for him
for a person whom not yet your love
for a person whom changed you a lot
pushed me to another, stated those words in your mind that really hurt me
and continued to ignore existence of mine

never even a tears I've dropped
because the disappointment you gave had congealed all
like your heart incessantly playing up to him
the hot you gave to him, the cold i kept
should i be happy of my unconcerned?
or should i sad of my over concerned?

its all over
past is the past
and I must learn how not to care everything
or
learn to be selfish as you all been

Kuantan day 3

continue to the third day in Kuantan
( oh no...so long post...T^T)
14th July
i cant forget this day
why?

we slept at 11++ pm last night before
and..........
woke up at 3:30 am in the next day...LOL
why so early?
haha
we went to the famous mountain in Kuantan-- mountain Lembing(林明山）
for the purpose of to see the beautiful sunrise....
3:30am awoke
4:00am set out
5:00am reached Lembing
6:00am reached hilltop

at the end...we couldn't see the sunrise...T^T
we didn't know why...so don't ask us please~

pictures~.....





Muzeum........





there is a waterfall nearby Lembing
finish visiting the Muzeum,we went there...
quite a nice place~^^









I tell you who is him...Is Lee Kok Chiat!!! LOL



dinner dinner~~

@ East Coast Mall

Sole massage


night park...@@






before going to bed

Elin told me we slept at 4:30pm that night
i got shock to heard this
haha
cause the whole night,starts from 12:30pm
we played LAMI...NON-STOP
^^

Kuantan day 2

13rd July
the second day at Kuantan
woke up at 9++ am if not mistaken
pack up all the stuff than ready to go...
(house is too small to fit 10 of us,plus Dua-Satu's family,there are 15 people in this house...)
Dua-Satu found a room,a big master room...^^

@ Dua-Satu's house

@ Balok Beach

@ Swiss Garden






before we going to the seaside...we went to a supermarket first..
guess why?

cause......some people didn't bring towel... -.-
at the end...we bought those thingy at...Kemaman ( TERENGGANU!! )

me....hehe...looks cute ^^

and finally~...