nag nag 2

another 2 weeks war have to begin

how long still i can stand it?

i have to , i have to stand very still

this is the best time to train up myself

although i would have accidentally offended anyone of them

just to say :

if you wanna die , don't encumber the whole team

do want you should have be done

do the best but not only the good

*****

topic 2

i'd carried out an experiment few days ago

i got a conclusion :

sometimes i just need to play some tricks , i will get whatever i want from someone

oh ya, the someone can be no one, nobody, or even thought an extremely super duper action person.

nice to play with this kind of games. =)

nag~

There is something very important had missing

i've tried so hard to figure it out what exactly it is but ends up i got a question mark too

i asked myself whether can give up in finding the missing stuff

someone is answering : NO

oh ya

i've lost someone, there is.

myself

*******

回到了現實生活

殘酷總是喜歡逼人去接受它

被殘酷強姦的後果就是不能難過

因為是自己讓現實變得殘酷的

即使再怎麼忙碌

也不會是爲了私欲而麻煩了生活

但是我越躲麻煩，麻煩越是找上我

還是安靜吧。

哦不！不能安靜！

因為我有一張能夠說話的嘴

還是逃離吧。

哦不！不能逃離！

因為我有一雙走向未來的腿

還是眼不見為淨吧。

哦不！不能無視！

因為我有一對看得透徹的眼睛

還是捂住耳朵吧。

還是不要廢話吧。

這是人生經曆的途徑地

要是放棄

肯定連敵人也不如。

******

oh no.

realized that i've lost my writing pen too

really have to blog more to improve my language

teruk sangat.

我很高興你的日子過得這麼酸，因為你不懂什麽是愛。

R.I.P.

我们哭着到这个世界

离开的时候

也是别人流着眼泪送上最后一程

只是

为什么

要选择让别人提早掉下这些痛苦的泪？

_______

印象不多

却是那么靠近

那么深刻

有种心痛的感觉

有种不舍的感觉

亦有种明白的感觉

这是一种解脱

只是太突然

那一些还没说出口的话

永远再也没有机会听见

祝福

怀念。

舅舅，安息。

=')

CNY

正值農曆新年

怎麼新年的氣氛越來越淡

怎麼新年的情景越來越不一樣

自懂事以來

每一年的新年都是姐姐與我幫著媽媽的忙

遲睡早起 不定時吃東西的生活

越接近新年 我越愛

越是新年 越是忙碌

越是忙碌 越愛新年

過年之前的忙忙碌碌

意味著提醒著

春意漸漸濃

這是我的新年

mood~

hmmmm

bipolar mood

going in to the training camp later

i feel happy for can making new friends , meeting 988 DJs , and can learn something really useful to my studies or even future career

yet i feel sad too

for cant enjoy my time with family and friends , cant rest whenever i want , and i cant give my sweetheart accompany and i know she miss me

3 days

i know it wouldn't be easy

i know something big is waiting for me

and i can just wait here for dying

its okay

i know things big it also wouldn't can be bigger than my Monday's date

a date with the MINISTRY?

yea

i will be performing in front of the ministry

the first show

dancing in front of him

@@

its kinda stressful

and this is LIFE.

haiz.

ciao~

miss

time flies

brings away those tears

fade out those memories

i am leave with sadness

i do care bout something

something that actually i can't be too care

i will lose

i will miss

i love

thats why i care

step by step

i'd lost my own direction

where are the destiny?

just a joke .

morning~

6:40 in the morning
facing all the shit notes but cant be read in to my mind


for more than 1 week i said i wanna study it
for more than 1 week i'd been playing around without touching it

and this is the reason which is why am still facing my computer in this freaking early time
i wish to fall asleep
but i don't wish to retake this stupid subject
no choice and i have to study no matter how unwilling am i


this is call LIFE




we are always left with no choice
we are always wish to get another thing but first we have to sacrifice it
we are always been constrained to do things unwillingly
and
we are always have no chance to say NO



who the hell in this world is fu*king free and unfettered?
who the hell in this world is fu*king free from all anxieties?







let it be
everything will be fine
take a break and ready to move on
all we needed is just a fresh big breathe




okay should go back to study now.
morning peeps =)

exams.

study week past so quietly
without any sense of mine
and for sure i didn't touch any of my study notes

exam week
1 down and 5 more to go

yet my heart is still not in the exam mood


i am waiting for my one week holiday
i am waiting for my new short semester
i am waiting for the new year
i am waiting for my 21st birthday
i am waiting for the end of the short semester
and
i am anticipating for the Chinese New Year


things i am looking after are all happiness
seems like i am not happy enough recently?


i hate examinations
i hate getting stress

i hate my loved one gets hurt
i hate i could do nothing




i hate watching the tears from dropping but mine have to be hold
i hate seeing the bloods from bleeding but i have to stand very still




if you know how does heartache feels like
you wouldn't do so

don't even say love
because you ain't the one.

the Mask

Do not take things for granted
this is what i learnt from my ex-college


i was just a 18 year old secondary school graduated girl
but i knew how meaningful this sentence is
i got the message inside

but seems like no much people knowing the true meaning?
they do things for granted,take things for granted

everybody is wrong,the only correct one,is you





other's pain you feel nothing
because you made it
other's feel you feel rubbish
because you did it



how pretty how beautiful
no one will doubt on you


you wear thousand of masks on your face and act so naturally
should clap for you,for your brilliant action





no one is worthless if you do know how to APPRECIATE


the same thing
you do not know how to appreciate
that's why everyone is worthless to you
and you are nothing to everyone too.

night.

就让我的眼泪一直掉
反正在遥远的你 看不到

是誰說 不會讓我掉眼淚

謊言

you should know why.

fuck off

you said.

it is okay.

never mind for your heart breaking action.

emo...?

sometimes

i couldn't face the hard feeling of myself

i smile so hard but actually i was emo-ing

these led to a dim view of my recent life

i just have to admit that i am not happy at all

i know there is something between but i choose to keep myself in silence

things all happened

and then ended up with a freak fake smile

seriously look down on myself.

...

finals around

stress begin to arise

i know i couldn't control my bad temper again

never mind, there are always corners with changes awaiting me.

hope so.=)

boom

I'd tried so hard to hold

i told myself you're busying with something else so cant pick up my phone call

i told myself nothing to be mad

almost success to not blaming but concerning

but ends up BOOM

if, you are not going to follow me out

if, we are not waiting to hang out

if, i can only find you when there is something

what's up doesn't brings any meaning

but your what's up really makes me feel a bit hurt

no worries. just a little bit.

temper.haha. =')