heart pic

the best picture that makes me feel so warm and much better ever



though it could also makes me feel something that insulting my thoughts
appreciate it much
thanks ♥



i don't wish to hurt anyone
that's why whenever the pains attack,I've choose to escape
no matter how destructively i am








i felt bad

extremely bad







but thank you Lewis.

Wednesday

its Wednesday

suppose to be a good day ,the BR day

yet when i look in the the small little cage,everything is spoiled

the handsome boy died.

not really a big respond i had

but its true I'm sad

always having this ending

ALWAYS.

lil heartache

perhaps I've already got used to it

i can still stand the pain

but unwilling to let the body lie under the ground

I'll be missing .. much

i don't have the guts to face all these

so no worries,i wouldn't be the problem

no stepping forwards,but no backwards as well =)

Amy says:" single really feels good.freedom love us."

maybe its really nice,freedom

but it brings hurt too,the loneliness would keep on attacking

except of standing here taking no action,

what still i can do?

i give you my heart. =)

shit mood

at the end all the things had mess me up
i just like piece of shit
crying at the corner for no reason



tell me THE END
time for me to get up.

fed up

feel bad..


i said i hated to be tied down
you ignored

i warned you do not deaf to my voice
you ignored

i told you i was so damn tired being a puppet
you ignored


chances were given yet you let them flied so easily
and now you beg me not to leave



i could be stayed if you listen to me
but you didn't and just do what you wanted
feeling of mine all you just closed turn a blind eye to it
I'd dropped how much of tears and now you say you didn't realize at that moment


stop we blaming each other
tiring of all these shits
enough


STOP.










i was worrying bout you
but who the hell am I?
so i quiet down,let the pains attack


had enough
enough is enough
FED UP!!!

bad mood

things came to me together so suddenly
and its so complicated

i wish i could escape from here
no matter just for a second or forever
the only thing i wanted is HAPPY

whatever shits
i want my smile last longer than a second
i want the tiredness keeps away from me


yet always
the NEW comes,means the OLD goes
and it would never the happy ending occurs


i can do nothing.



everything is on my shoulder
slowly I'll be under the everything





it could be the truth, it might be only a joke
depends on you,how you read it



don't ask : is it true?
your smile is everything.
=)

the way my handsome boy look at me. say CUTE please =]

random~

it was like had been thousand years I'd blog here
in fact there were lots of photos i wanted to share
but @@
OK i was kinda lazy and......
actually nothing much to be updated


used to spread out my feelings or stuff happened here
yet i was like....something missing out and i couldn't found

like kinda "mute" species ,i rarely talk now



or,i had lost something important to me...perhaps?



i do hate been tied down
like losing my hands and feet
wished to fly yet I'd no wings



myself had been changed very differently
could you,please
find IT back to me?












you are always deaf to my voice, aren't you? ='[

CNY EVE ^^

wow......
it's Chinese New Year Eve now!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol
freaking tired @@
non-stop helping my mama about 30++ hours
and I'd just sleep for less than 6 hours a day.. @@
okay i know its no big deal.... =[
tapi aku ni memang + sungguh + Chiu Kap letih.....><


( OM Buddha..... i still have to get up at 6am , and i'm still blogging here...?! )


those BAI BAI stuff prepared and ready to be consecrated





phew..~~

off to bed~~~~~~~~~~~~ ciaoz~!!! ^^

























oh ya,

Happy Chinese New Year peeps~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =]

>>> nothing

the Chinese New Year Carnival at Kajang...



















suppose to be a happy post
yet my mood got interference at the end

tiring of holding something strong
i wish i could let go but in fact i really care much

everyone is asking me okay or not

how much i wish i could answered "yes,i'm very fine."
yet i can't hide my sadness until it turns my speak into a lie

the 'nothing' post

Began a lot better
Just worry about this year New Year will let me down
I'd better not
I still enjoy New Year!



already said....
Everything is different !!!
Everything has changed !!!!!!

you knew,but then?
you don't even take this as a matter
okay fine~
forget everything then.......

yet I'm really hate
sigh ='[


huhu~~
by the way~
i DON'T need you anymore
i mean it!

simply crapping

people used to say
:" think out of the box. "

i did
and I'd thought too much,perhaps?

i like to put a fake smile on my face whenever I'm moody
simply just because,i don't like people keep questioning around
sounds annoying, isn't it?

indeed
being an actress in real life isn't much different with those cheater
but hello
who gonna cares whether you are or you aren't
no one's gonna care much about you


so what's the reason that i must show what i feel?
a mask on face is better
at least i can hide my tears if i really failed to hold it





and i've forgotten
for how many times i hold so strong to not letting the liquid drop off
for how many times i told myself not to care too much
for how many times, i felt so hurt...again and again




i tell myself i've think too excessive
and i wish it's true i've think too far from the little box
yet
i knew
another lie on myself again.










the problem is about
suddenly i feel I'm very faraway from my dear friends.

Juin Juin

says :" When you are not allowed to stay, tears could just make you much more pathetic....so, just leave. "

awaiting..........

The past has passed
the best time has been recorded
and do not need to record the unhappy
perhaps in ordinary days
Can find unordinary happiness!


I look up to the sky and giggling
I very hope my future could be as special as the shining stars in the sky...




****

某天~

黃淙暐的老師

~在課堂上出習題~

作文名稱：我的家庭

我出生在一個非常貧苦的家庭，記得小時候，爸爸的生活很無聊，整天只能數錢，媽媽也是，整天都在掃錢。
我家住在深山中，每次要出去買東西，都相當麻煩，開保時捷要5小時，開賓士也要4小時；雖然家裡有直昇機，但是開到那邊很難找到停機位，相當的不方便。我 偶爾也會出去逛街，爸媽怕我被綁架，隨身有20多個保鑣保護著，大家看到我都嚇跑了，所以我從小就開始被排斥......
因為家裡是在深山，每次到了冬天都非常冷，爸爸也說，出去買東西很麻煩，所以冬天沒有暖爐...沒有棉被...每天只能陪著爸媽燒錢取暖...而睡覺的時候，也只能蓋著錢睡覺(我覺得英鎊比較溫暖)。
　記得小時候，有一次，因為房間太大，還來不及跑出房間，就尿褲子了。所以，爸爸在我房間放了一台小綿羊機車，好讓我能在10分鐘以內，衝出1000坪的房間，穿越5公里的走廊，到達800坪的廁所(我常常在走廊迷路)。
　爸爸又另外叫人加蓋了20間600坪裡面有著250坪小廁所的破房間。爸爸說：以後如果尿濕了，直接換房間，如果房間不夠或是太小的話，再告訴爸爸，爸爸再叫人來多蓋幾間，我們的生活很辛苦，你要忍著點！！現在想起來，爸爸真是個善良的人！！
　還記得有一次，家裡遭小偷，因為他用炸藥炸壞了我爸的保險箱，使得裡面的金幣不斷的往外滾出來，結果竟把那個小偷壓死了......我覺得那個小偷好可憐......金幣壓死人是很痛的!!
他不像之前那個被鈔票悶死的小偷一樣幸運。媽媽也常常告訴我，我們家生活非常困苦～要我學著吃苦～
　所以我從小養成了刻苦耐勞精神，我將來的志願，是要找200隻會吃錢的怪物，好把家裡的錢都吃光，為那些可憐的小偷報仇！！

嘉義市蘭潭國小六年一班黃淙暐


老師評語：去死啦！

****


I'm now freaking happy
and is anticipating the big days!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wish the time could past faster yet could stop at the moment....
=]


Happy New Year!!!

new year eve

2009 quietly left
But 2010 came in such lively
although is late but still need to wish you here
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
^^

the last day of 2009 ( which is also Sum Sum's birthday...)
the bitch planned to go PD about a month ago
and finally we were there in 31st Dec 2009!!
Perhaps this place will make you a bit..... like YUCK!!!
yet this place had given me an unforgettable memory...



heading to the beach

i was driving

the bitch was coquetting while i was putting on the sunblock cream ==

small crab crab






banana boat-ING





Somewhat cruel
But in fact she enjoyed...the only victim -- Rubbish Low


p/s: She is a perfect joker
Often make jokes
this PD trip, of course, is not exceptional also
She lets my year 2010 no regrets........

** caught caught.....
i saw a small little mini ship in the sea...white in color...XD


when the time came nearly to 12am,we rushed down to the seaside
wow,never expect to see this much of people
they were also waiting for the countdown season

its really awesome
i saw the nearly 15 minutes of fireworks
i screamed and felt so touched that moment
the sky was really pretty....



P


and finally the new year is over
I am now looking forward to my lunar New Year
which means......................................

SHOPPING!!!!!!