【一种坚持 一种信仰】

 

【一种坚持 一种信仰】

原来只不过是个无意的玩笑

却成了每一个人口中坚持的理由

才发现

有心的人多的是

愿意付出的

永远数得清

坚持了九年

换来了灿烂的青春

却也得到了一次又一次 - 期待、失望、心碎、再坚持 - 

那一种无奈的奋战

是什么让信念维持了九年？

是相聚

是相处

是相爱

是那看起来牢不可破却脆弱得让人始终心力交瘁的情谊

我的还在

你的呢？

你们的呢...?

过往的回忆

是否就那么容易被时间侵蚀

那为什么时间冲淡了这些我们死死抓牢的回忆

却带不走那些不满、猜疑、怨恨、嫉妒………………

好庆幸还是听到了那一句
“很后悔没有进去一起玩”

好开心还是听到了那一句
“不管多远的距离，你心系缘牵！真的感动”



好安慰
心底的那一份激动
大家都在燃烧着





















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它从零开始了

但
它给予大家的感动依然是满分的
它给予大家的感觉仍然是个大家庭
它给予大家的感触依旧是坚贞不移的情谊

它给予你我他的
是一种坚持
是一种信仰





它，从零开始了

你还回来吗？




回来吧。

走

人生
只有时光这一条路是往前走的

牵着时间走吧。

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仿佛害怕从此以后再不能相聚一样
自然地安排在离开前的生活


这是兴奋的
这是痛苦的





短暂的离开是必然的


只是离开以后
生活将会有什么样的起伏


一支重重的锤子不断敲着心脏

一条重重的链子不断扯着脚踝

一双无形的手慢慢在碾碎我的希望






学会近视吧

会来的
总会来的







赤脚走
感觉是不是更深一点？

战。

要是人生有什么是真正可怕的
那一定是制造了永远也不可能回去的回忆

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同样的事情
却以不同样的形式去进行
一幕又一幕的矛盾
一阵又一阵的心痛

总是无法阻止
出现在脑海的过去

停止播放的按键好疼爱它们




那是我们都回不去的从前？

我真的好想念你们。



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不敢对谁太好

因为好了就会变成坏



感情线就像股票
唯一不同的
也许就是

直线掉入了谷底后
再上升的可能，很小





心战。

VS。

照片拍出来的角度 vs 别人眼中的“真人”


当然不一样
因为相机、手机不是人
虽然是死物
却懂得从各个角度观看事情

最后
什么都是美丽的。

人
总是一个角度、一个立场
事情看起来
时而美丽
时而丑陋


*不一样的角度，不一样的感官。

变。

* 中国报

*南洋商报

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生活总是充满着变化

就如这部落格 ：

说好是打英文的，变了

说好是被冷冻的，变了

从前说好投身医生律师行业的

这回真的变了

媒体界也许才是我发挥的地方

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误会自己只在伤心难过的时候才握得住文笔

原来不是

是自己变得慵懒了

计划永远赶不上变化。

傷痕累累

若語出驚人的意思

是一句剛說出口的話可以嚇死人

那被自己的話嚇著的

大概就是那句

“自己是充滿著挫折的”

話剛落

一陣不愛壞好意的笑聲

一陣沒有同情的笑聲

一陣讓自己當頭棒喝的笑聲

原來自己多麼不堪一擊

走了那麼久 那麼遠

也沒發現自己

已經遍體鱗傷

也許現在的自己非常不快樂

也許功力比預期中的差

也許笑不出來的理由是個秘密

但是原來疼愛自己是這麼困難

我已經是充滿挫折了

爲什麽要到別人大聲地笑了

我才發現？

我已經是失敗的例子了

爲什麽要到別人諷刺地嘲笑

我才不甘心？

心中激起一陣漣漪

是當年被埋下的衝動。

忙里偷闲

忙里偷闲

从心中丢出些什么

让海风吹散

让海水冲走

疲惫与压力

是自己给自己的

若是自己的转变

也许还可以再转个45°

至少不是一个让自己迷失

再也不认识自己的人

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心魔潜伏着

一丝丝不甘 不愿就这样被覆盖着

危险

但如何消除？

也许永不会

也许要到心甘情愿的报复后

若每一段情都得添上一个背叛

这个背叛苦得太没有滋味儿了

原来我倦得没时间体会生活的甜酸苦辣。

lost.again

離開文字的世界多久了

與文字的關係

和與朋友的距離一樣遙遠

總是有一種

好想觸碰

卻又擔心搞砸的心情

常常這樣告訴自己：

朋友忽略你

是你有問題

不主動

會讓人非常好意思地冷落、拋棄你

主動

也只是讓人為難地要應酬你

如果“你很忙”

是朋友不找，自己一班人去玩樂的藉口

不該躲起來哭泣

或許應該學會放棄。

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有些問題

越是在意

越是浮現

找不到突破自己的缺口

漸漸迷失在自己的迷宮

我明白握緊的手會讓我疼痛

但放鬆卻還有傷痕在留

若沉澱仍然無法救贖自己

該找另一個世界的生活。

鴕鳥

病

不是假裝它不在

它就真的會消失

這種鴕鳥行為

如果真的在愛情上行的通的話

一切用於溝通的機器都毀了吧

而如果非得說傷害人心的話

隨後更要表現得像個沒殺過人的殺人犯一樣

很痛

也很滾

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假設說

一段愛情的轉變

破裂與親人之間的反差

真的如此難以適應

我無法忍受一些挑戰我耐心的任性。

Idiot.

the second time

you did the stupid action to confess that you're really an idiot

AGAIN

don't think people really care you that much

although we know you wish to get everyone's attraction

not in this way dude

too low and it's CHEAP

why?

you love to put yourself in those position which people actually mentioning another one

come with lotsa “very wronged" craps to emphasize that you're definitely an idiot

if you knew you were probably not the one been mentioned

then PLEASE,don't give any response cause it's fucking NOTHING to do with you !

*****

我們知道這世界上存在著很多人

只是沒想到同種人也很多。

相隔這麼遠，我也可以感覺到你的臉皮。

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原來套在別人身上也起了這麼大的作用

心虛惹的禍。

nag nag 2

another 2 weeks war have to begin

how long still i can stand it?

i have to , i have to stand very still

this is the best time to train up myself

although i would have accidentally offended anyone of them

just to say :

if you wanna die , don't encumber the whole team

do want you should have be done

do the best but not only the good

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topic 2

i'd carried out an experiment few days ago

i got a conclusion :

sometimes i just need to play some tricks , i will get whatever i want from someone

oh ya, the someone can be no one, nobody, or even thought an extremely super duper action person.

nice to play with this kind of games. =)

nag~

There is something very important had missing

i've tried so hard to figure it out what exactly it is but ends up i got a question mark too

i asked myself whether can give up in finding the missing stuff

someone is answering : NO

oh ya

i've lost someone, there is.

myself

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回到了現實生活

殘酷總是喜歡逼人去接受它

被殘酷強姦的後果就是不能難過

因為是自己讓現實變得殘酷的

即使再怎麼忙碌

也不會是爲了私欲而麻煩了生活

但是我越躲麻煩，麻煩越是找上我

還是安靜吧。

哦不！不能安靜！

因為我有一張能夠說話的嘴

還是逃離吧。

哦不！不能逃離！

因為我有一雙走向未來的腿

還是眼不見為淨吧。

哦不！不能無視！

因為我有一對看得透徹的眼睛

還是捂住耳朵吧。

還是不要廢話吧。

這是人生經曆的途徑地

要是放棄

肯定連敵人也不如。

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oh no.

realized that i've lost my writing pen too

really have to blog more to improve my language

teruk sangat.

我很高興你的日子過得這麼酸，因為你不懂什麽是愛。

R.I.P.

我们哭着到这个世界

离开的时候

也是别人流着眼泪送上最后一程

只是

为什么

要选择让别人提早掉下这些痛苦的泪？

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印象不多

却是那么靠近

那么深刻

有种心痛的感觉

有种不舍的感觉

亦有种明白的感觉

这是一种解脱

只是太突然

那一些还没说出口的话

永远再也没有机会听见

祝福

怀念。

舅舅，安息。

=')

CNY

正值農曆新年

怎麼新年的氣氛越來越淡

怎麼新年的情景越來越不一樣

自懂事以來

每一年的新年都是姐姐與我幫著媽媽的忙

遲睡早起 不定時吃東西的生活

越接近新年 我越愛

越是新年 越是忙碌

越是忙碌 越愛新年

過年之前的忙忙碌碌

意味著提醒著

春意漸漸濃

這是我的新年

mood~

hmmmm

bipolar mood

going in to the training camp later

i feel happy for can making new friends , meeting 988 DJs , and can learn something really useful to my studies or even future career

yet i feel sad too

for cant enjoy my time with family and friends , cant rest whenever i want , and i cant give my sweetheart accompany and i know she miss me

3 days

i know it wouldn't be easy

i know something big is waiting for me

and i can just wait here for dying

its okay

i know things big it also wouldn't can be bigger than my Monday's date

a date with the MINISTRY?

yea

i will be performing in front of the ministry

the first show

dancing in front of him

@@

its kinda stressful

and this is LIFE.

haiz.

ciao~

miss

time flies

brings away those tears

fade out those memories

i am leave with sadness

i do care bout something

something that actually i can't be too care

i will lose

i will miss

i love

thats why i care

step by step

i'd lost my own direction

where are the destiny?

just a joke .

morning~

6:40 in the morning
facing all the shit notes but cant be read in to my mind


for more than 1 week i said i wanna study it
for more than 1 week i'd been playing around without touching it

and this is the reason which is why am still facing my computer in this freaking early time
i wish to fall asleep
but i don't wish to retake this stupid subject
no choice and i have to study no matter how unwilling am i


this is call LIFE




we are always left with no choice
we are always wish to get another thing but first we have to sacrifice it
we are always been constrained to do things unwillingly
and
we are always have no chance to say NO



who the hell in this world is fu*king free and unfettered?
who the hell in this world is fu*king free from all anxieties?







let it be
everything will be fine
take a break and ready to move on
all we needed is just a fresh big breathe




okay should go back to study now.
morning peeps =)

exams.

study week past so quietly
without any sense of mine
and for sure i didn't touch any of my study notes

exam week
1 down and 5 more to go

yet my heart is still not in the exam mood


i am waiting for my one week holiday
i am waiting for my new short semester
i am waiting for the new year
i am waiting for my 21st birthday
i am waiting for the end of the short semester
and
i am anticipating for the Chinese New Year


things i am looking after are all happiness
seems like i am not happy enough recently?


i hate examinations
i hate getting stress

i hate my loved one gets hurt
i hate i could do nothing




i hate watching the tears from dropping but mine have to be hold
i hate seeing the bloods from bleeding but i have to stand very still




if you know how does heartache feels like
you wouldn't do so

don't even say love
because you ain't the one.

the Mask

Do not take things for granted
this is what i learnt from my ex-college


i was just a 18 year old secondary school graduated girl
but i knew how meaningful this sentence is
i got the message inside

but seems like no much people knowing the true meaning?
they do things for granted,take things for granted

everybody is wrong,the only correct one,is you





other's pain you feel nothing
because you made it
other's feel you feel rubbish
because you did it



how pretty how beautiful
no one will doubt on you


you wear thousand of masks on your face and act so naturally
should clap for you,for your brilliant action





no one is worthless if you do know how to APPRECIATE


the same thing
you do not know how to appreciate
that's why everyone is worthless to you
and you are nothing to everyone too.

night.

就让我的眼泪一直掉
反正在遥远的你 看不到

是誰說 不會讓我掉眼淚

謊言

you should know why.

fuck off

you said.

it is okay.

never mind for your heart breaking action.